COVID-19: Quarantine Life

As of yesterday, Thursday, April 23, 2020, I have been in quarantine for a total of 34 days; today being 35 days. Up until yesterday my quarantine experience has been pretty good for the most part. I have had days where I feel anxious or lonely but i can usually shake the feeling.

I’m lucky enough to be able to work from home and not need for anything. My family is healthy and basically all of us have been able to take time off work or work remotely and still have our income. Being at home has resulted in me saving MAJOR money that I usually blow on going out and I have been forced to ADULT BIG TIME, cooking almost everyday (something I use to only do occasionally). I have been bonding with my dogs more, especially Nova, my stubborn, 1 year old pit bull. Like i said, my self-isolation time has not been bad.

On the days where this quarantining gets to be a bit much I start to feel anxious. I look at all the things I have to do with work but cant get myself to work on much of anything. I feel like my day is wasted and the thought that the work is just pilling up makes the thought of the next day not very pleasant. I have so many things I can be doing at my house too, like clean, DIY some home decor, paint my kitchen (currently under construction) or organize my mystery room. Anxiety makes me feel like I cant focus and frustrates me but doesn’t encourage me to tackle any of those tasks.

Some days I find myself feeling lonely. Ive come to notice that of all the people around me quarantining live with other people. My only company are my dogs. Don’t get me wrong… I love them, but they tend to lack in the conversation department, lol. On the lonely days my mind wonders to past relationships, friendships, encounters and how meaningful they were; or weren’t. Do you ever wonder if you pop into peoples heads like they pop into yours? I believe that when someone pops into your head its for a reason and you should reach out. In the instances when I can’t reach out I try to check in on them in other ways i.e. social media. Knowing that these people, that have made an impact on my life are doing well, brings me a sense of comfort strangely enough. Anyways… I digress.

To add to all of this I got some news that is really going to effect my family. Its not something anyone knows about but it will completely turn my family on its head for a while. We will push through and do what is necessary as always but I think on top of everything, this COVID-19 just makes everything worse and scarier.

With all of this going on the only thing that keeps me sane is music. I can fully experience my emotions and feelings when the right music plays without really thinking about it. The right beat and melody carry its own healing qualities and enters my head. Currently listening to Jessie Reyez.

I feel that this blog has gotten longer then I anticipated. Im going to call it a night and make my website public with my first post.

Good Night <3